Life Art Music Writing

政變

是因一場政變,人們心中的硬塊

終究定型、堵塞,少了跳動時的

酣暢亢奮

長久共生之後,連逆境也成為了一種價值、

個性,冷漠取代憧憬

靜默成為思念

我陷入了不斷肯定

之前否定了自我肯定的漩渦之中

變得謙卑、自我批判,懷疑

長年以來建立的個人哲學、

自尊、以及過去

陰鬱咆哮的雲層喧囂

在那頭安靜的彼岸的你

是否有著同樣重新跳動的

一場政變

2017.07.12~13

午夜時分,人們正襟危坐,

將準備餵食孤獨。

你拿出一條潔白的手帕,

使口腔裡那並不需要的血塊

吐出了染暈記憶的紅。

便是這紅,人們正襟危坐,

已拿來餵食孤獨。

就在兩點相交於同一座標的那時,

孤獨壯大,山河並肩作戰也含不住

一整夜的漫長。

2016.08.28

Salon at home

Last Sunday, my roommate and I started a salon series at home. Organizing stuff in New York is difficult, as things get intense and overdue, and you can always have as many troubles in work as in personal life. Luckily, a bunch of supportive friends and art enthusiasts never give up occasions where they can get drunk and shout out their love for the city, while the city becomes more irresistibly charming because of them.

The first salon was much simpler than what we had envisioned due to the limited time we had for planning as well as the doubt for the feasibility. The only performers we had for the music part were me and my roommate's laptop (on which a recorded live performance was played). Artist Michael Hafftka showed up in his casual denim shirt with a humongous amount of energy to be poured out from his creative mind. Throughout the salon, Michael went through all the facets of his creative process, from how to start a painting, how to pin down a title (in which his lovely wife Yonat Hafftka playes a big part) to how to interact with the viewers, he successfully left an impression of a Santa Claus... No, a mature artist who has a great positive vibe and as well as total control of his art world (which is that you cannot control...). As a music lover, he also shared his immediate reaction after hearing me perform the "Piano Sonata 1. X. 1905" by Leos Janacek as a game to compare the historical context of an artwork and the audience's emotional reaction. (Here I am sharing a great recording recommended by the intelligent and elegant pianist Lisa Yui.) When it came to music, we were so lucky to have had Lisa in presence as her broad knowledge made a much-appreciated contribution to the discussion. She could just call in Beethoven and Chopin when we dealt with subjects such as giving a title or to communicate the creators' intentions, and she would tell us what these giants in the classical music world would say about them. We had so many wonderful people in our apartment, and most of them came to hear my roommate Shiuan Chang's wonderfully unique composition. As the composer stated himself, he preferred not to give away the title before playing the recording because he believed "a direct personal contact with the artwork" would be the most genuine way of appreciating art. All these discussion led us to explore other media in the art world. We turned to the inspiring photographer Masahito Ono for his point of view, as he later recalled, "I don't consider any of my work original since all the materials and elements I use already exist." That suites perfectly for a pianist dealing with a musical score, and our discussion paused there, with me finishing the salon by performing Schubert's Wanderer Fantasy. We are all wanderers on the path of pursuing the art, aren't we?

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在我心中築起的城牆們

本應是這座城 ,你穿梭於其中。

究竟哪幅面具是今晚的裝扮? 

你總無法理解我的顧忌。 

 

今夜的雨比昨夜更涼,你說: 

「城外的城好精彩,我們該。」 

可還未及那夜的雨。 

 

本應是這座城,我穿梭於其中。 

與友人相約躲雨的角落? 

我總無法離開你的陰影。 

是昨晚夢中造訪的你 

說:「城外的城好精彩,你該。」 

於是在彩虹高掛的夜裡 

我建起了一面城牆 

它繽紛耀眼,像你的回眸, 

可還未及夢裡的你。 

 

因此,是今天的我的反省。 

我是否不該再擴建城牆? 

畢竟你已不再穿梭於其中。 

在我終究從夢裡醒來時, 

我會不會還未遇見過你, 

我的夢? 

 

本應是這座城,我仍穿梭於其中。 

到底哪晚的夢是你留下來的? 

我總無法記起第一面城牆。 

 

今夜的雨不比明夜的雨,你說: 

「城外的城好精彩,我該。」 

2016.09.19